Tabby by Kelsey

Back From the Dead

I am a hopeless romantic and I have always been troubled by the idea that we are only allowed to live one life at the current moment. I craved to live in Norway for my childhood or become a painter in Madrid, the possibilities of life are so enchanting. For this reason I love photographs and books because using both these objects I am able to place myself somewhere else for awhile. My personality is a mix breed but enfj makes sense for me, dreamer, optimist, nostalgic, romantic. I live vicariously through the photographs I hoard in a basket beside my bed, family members I never met, people who managed to be in the background of a family photo, so many stories that I could create and watch in my mind. My longing for time is something that haunts me as is my ability to fall in love with little details of strangers I meet. I joke with my friends that I wish I could collect people and they think I am crazy until I explain to them that I observe things with great attention. I enjoy watching and I do take part in life but analyzing the behaviors of humanity sparks my interests and lets me think of stories I would want to write. People are both monsters and works of art, utterly complex and so beautiful. I get attached to moments, feelings, people, places, songs, and elaborate series of events in my mind. When I look at the photos I feel so completely happy, I make trips to my attic to get more photos to add to the basket. Many times I will get so caught up while looking at them and sit up there for hours but I enjoy that time. The photos allow me to forget reality for a bit which is something every dreamer needs to survive. The basket of photographs next to my bed is precious to me. My bookshelf is another crucial object in my life. Books have always been present for me, when I was younger I would watch my dad read thick books about life and modern sciences or politics. He would have stacks of books all over his desk, all over his nightstand and filling under the bed. My mom would collect old antique books and pile them in every hallway and on top of tables in every room. It makes sense to me now that I volunteer in both the school and public library and take advantage of any book sale ever. My bookshelf holds all the people I have ever been and best friends I have made. They are like photo albums. The books and the photos hold the same purpose to me. It was never the idea that I was stuck with who I was because I am confident in the quirky and clumsy person I am but rather the idea that I could experience more things than reality would let me. I could cheat reality. I would lend books from my bookshelves when I felt it was their time to grace someone else for a bit. The books had also been antidotes. I lent them to those who could be benefited from the story the greatest at that moment and my friends would read them and they would understand because they felt understood. The power of literature is something I find hard to fathom but will always remain fascinated by. Through the magic in old photographs and worn in books I found comfort and my wanderlust was tamed while I traveled to faraway places and met people who didn’t yet know I existed.
-Ember Nocturne

◄Summer Rewind◄

 Above Photos By: Kaitlyn Sandvik

Above Photo By: Liza Hemingway

Where The Leaves Fall: An Autumn Mixtape (illustrated by Jessica Dantas)

1. And If We Both Fail? // Mixtapes 

2. Past Lives // Diiv

3. Black Comedy // Bright Eyes

4. Le Temps de L'amour // Francoise Hardy

5. Carnation // IO Echo

6. Ungirthed // Purity Ring

7. Misguided Ghosts // Paramore

8. Piazza, New York Catcher // Belle & Sebastian

9. First Day of My Life // Bright Eyes

10. Playing God // Paramore

11. Oxford Comma // Vampire Weekend

12. Tainted Love // Soft Cell

13. The Ghost Inside // Broken Bells

14. Blah Blah Blah // Say Hi To Your Mom

15. I'm Writing a Novel // Father John Misty

16. Horchata // Vampire Weekend

17. Dead Hearts // Stars

18. Everything You Wanted // Clubfeet

19. Dear Fellow Traveler // Sea Wolf

20. Get What You Want // JJAMZ

21. Fidelity // Regina Spektor

22. San Francisco // Foxygen

23. Full Moon // The Black Ghosts

24. Heartbreak // Clubfeet

25. Run // Vampire Weekend

26. Sweater Weather // The Neighbourhood

27. Thunder // Gold Fields

28. By Surprise // Gemini Club

29. Here // Hellogoodbye

30. Magic // Olympic Ayres

31. Bruises // Chairlift

32. I Sold My Bed, But Not My Stereo // Capital Cities

33.  Falling // Ben Kweller

34. Two Weeks // Grizzly Bear

35. Critical Mass // College

36. Animal // Miike Snow

37. Thirteen // Ben Kweller

38. Miss Halfway // Anya Marina

39. At Home ( Passion Pit Remix) // Crystal Fighters

40. Lights & Music // Cut Copy

41. It's Not Over // Panama

42. Spirit // Delorean

43. Lola // The Kinks

44. Leaves in The River // Sea Wolf

45. Skeletons // Yeah Yeah Yeahs

46. Age of Consent // New Order

47. Chicago // Sufjan Stevens

48. Harvest Moon // Poolside

49. Daydream // Youth Lagoon

50. Midnight City // M83 

-Ember Nocturne

Surreal Art Featured Below By: Ember Nocturne

Untitled for Now by Jessica Dantas